So October kind of sucked. Sure, I went to Leicester for Diwali and to see Phil and a few friends, and I spent a weekend in Edinburgh, but overall it wasn’t a good month.
My motivation levels have been little to none lately. I can feel myself falling back into the abyss that is my mental health. I haven’t been putting as much effort into my writing as I should be. Mentions of college work have left me burying my head in the sand, and I’ve been skipping classes and blehhhh.
Of course, complaining and moping around doesn’t exactly help matters, and unfortunately that’s all I have been doing. I decided to write a list of things I need to get on with, along with a couple of other little goals. The 6 month plan I put together in September is taking a bit of a back seat for now; I need to focus on the present.
One thing that has been bothering me for a long time is how much I struggle with writing fiction. As you may see from some of my suuuuper old blog posts, I used to thoroughly enjoy writing fiction; I’ve dreamt of being an author since before I was even able to write. Unfortunately, due to taking so much time out for my mental health, I haven’t done any fictional writing in about five years.
Then there’s also my dissertation and assignments to consider. I’m in my final year, and I really want to graduate with a good grade in my degree. I’ve been on this road for too long to throw it all away with a below average degree. I therefore really need to start getting on with as soon as I get them. Unfortunately, I hate college with a passion, which doesn’t really help with my motivation.
So what am I going to do about it?
I decided to join in with National Novel Writing Month (aka NaNoWriMo) this month. NaNoWriMo is a huge thing that a large portion of writers get involved in, where you aim to write 50,000 words in the month of November. It may seem crazy for me to take part in something so ambitious, but I’m really just trying to focus less on the word count and more on just writing as much as I can every day.
It’s day 3, and I’ve only written 1694 words so far, but my word count is slowly growing as I keep pushing myself to write. I’m also very aware of how bad my writing is at the moment, but I’m trying to ignore that and cut myself some slack.
I’ve also signed up for a Stress Control program with the NHS, which starts this coming week. The support group will hopefully help me to keep afloat without the use of self-sabotage and burying my head in the sand. I don’t know a lot about how it’s going to work, but I do know that unlike CBT it doesn’t have any homework. At this point in time, the last thing I need is more work to do.
Another thing that might really help me to get through all of this is exercise. Guys, I am such a lazy lump. I try to exercise regularly, but it just hasn’t been happening lately. I feel tired and sluggish all of the time, and not exercising isn’t exactly helping.
Cutting down on the amount of junk food I eat and swapping it for something more nutritious should also benefit me. So expect some ideas for healthy comfort foods in a future blog; I am going to need all the noms to get me through this last year of college. They might just help you get through your days too. And then I’m also using BetterYou’s Vitamin D and Vitamin B12 supplement oral sprays to help with my mood and brain functionality.
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Of course, the most difficult part is actually sticking to the plan.
That is why Tricia from Chocolate Musings and I have decided to become accountability buddies. We both feel like October was a bit poopy, and we’re determined to do something about it. November will NOT be another rubbish month for us.
Want to be accountability partners? Let’s do it together!
Let me know what goals you have this month and what you’re going to do to achieve them. Goals are much easier to meet when you’re not alone with them.
And in the meantime, keep smiling!